new beginnings

... I can be pretty stubborn and that has two sides to it... its beautiful when it expresses itself through my loyalty to the ones I love or the persistence to find the truth inside me, but it also has a dark side, as everything always does. When my stubbornness attached itself to an unworthy cause as I have done in the past ... I just wouldn't give up ... no matter how hopeless it seemed ... no matter how damaging it would become...

But now I have learned that sometimes you need to forget about all the time and effort you have invested in that what you believed in, and to accept that you need to start "a new beginning " and cut your losses...

But how do you know the difference... ? How do you know when to stay and when to start a new beginning ...? To be able to answer that question I had to pull the brakes on everything in my life, and begin the journey of getting to know myself, call my own bullshit and most importantly I had to learn how to love myself... meaning - learn to fully accept both the dark and the light side in myself.

And now that I am in tune with myself and know who I am,  it is very easy to see the difference, and to make healthy choices...